Thursdays

Since I was in elementary school I've always had this complex about Thursday. Just that day in the week where you've run out of fresh outfits to wear (clean draws); you've made it through "hump day" but you have one more day to go; you're excited and anxious for Friday, And it's  probably raining or gloomy out. On top of all of that I have learned since my diagnosis that it's the day that I am most sluggish. It's particularly hard to get out of bed. I'm a bit slow and foggy in the brain and all I can think about is putting my feet up and watching TV. 

Anyways I have been completely obsessed with trying to lose weight. It's mentally frustrating when I know that my body needs to be strapped to a treadmill with a carrot in my mouth, but at the same time knowing that neither of which is very healthy for me. I used to be so active and determined to push myself physically. Now my body literally stops moving if I walk too fast or do something I guess "it" doesn't like. I remember last year, before my diagnosis), I was running late for a train (story of my life) and suddenly, out of nowhere, I couldn't move. Now what does that mean? My best description is that all of my muscles in my legs contracted at the same time. Something also used to occur with my back, but it's difficult to explain. But it's so weird and crazy to comprehend that one day you can be fine and the next day you can't make a train.

Back to the point....I tried eating fewer calories, like 1200, for the past week and I recognized today that I got that tingling sensation thought my whole body when I get hungry. Trying to find the meaning of that. It's annoying to find out that everything is MS related (and uncontrollable).

Also,  I found that doing cardio that's not specific to one area of the body (which will cause that area to be weak) is tolerable in light doses. I'll discuss more of that later in the summer when I've done it a few times. 

Please feel free to leave comments about exercises that have helped you or diets that haven't left you feeling weak!!

-Morgan